been a while

Hey been a while, over a month. I know I'm not missed. Maybe I miss myself ever thought about that? Anyway this can be an outlet, might as well use it.

Nothing new, actually a lot new, just to graphic and slutty to reveal details. Been seeing a couple of people. Neither are the best but hey gotta start somewhere, figure out what I want, what I'm looking for. Maybe I will wake up one day and realize what I got ain't so bad. Ok....so that probably won't happen but I'm hoping some clarity will come. Still seeing the one guy I posted about before. Not very often, don't talk a lot and hadn't seen him for over a couple months til last night. Nice to see him, talk to him, but yeah still not compatible in bed. So that's really a lose-lose situation. He's selfish, obviously not in it cause he 'likes' me. Oh well, I really don't give a shit anymore about him.
Seeing someone else. Very complicated. He's not really available. But we are attracted to each other, not only physically but, in all areas. Just can't help ourselves. He's smart and just seems we are on the same level in life. He's my age, that's different. I've never been with someone my age before, except highschool/college. Anyway I like him. Not a long term physical relationship, but I can definitely see him being a very good friend for a very long time. The kind of friend that is true, will be there for you, in thick and thin, got your back. That's a plus. Maybe that's all I'm looking for right now. Anyway gotta go, running some errands. Have a great week, month etc....
I'm happy. As crazy as it is, I am a happy person right now. Broke, confused, lonely, but damn fuckin happy