Hanger upper emailed me today. It was a very shitty email. Something to the effect of 'we'll never be more than friends cause I ask if he's mad.' Okay. Here's my problem with that. IF YOU ALWAYS ACT MAD - DON'T EXPECT PEOPLE TO THINK YOUR NOT (EVEN IF YOU TOLD THEM 3 MONTHS AGO THEIR NOT MAD MUCH - IT DOESN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE IF THAT'S HOW YOUR ACTING!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I was a little upset at first, I cried a little. I was on the verge of tears anyway - that just put me over. Now I'm better - great actually. Good fuckin riddins (? spelling -don't give a shit). You can only run into a fuckin brick wall so many times before you wanna fuckin give up, ya know. I don't need that shit. He's fucking paranoid. Oh and he had the nerve to say that I expected him to act a certain way, say a certain thing etc..... What the fuck? And he doesn't?? I mean really, get off it - stop being so damn paranoid and just fucking live. JEEZ!!! Be a fuckin man, understand women are different than you are. We are feeling beings. If you don't want a feeling woman - swing the other fuckin way. Aaaarrrrgggghhhhh. Sorry about the F bombs y'all - I'm just angry - can you tell?
On the other hand. I still FEEL a little of that, 'What the Fuck is wrong with me.' feeling. It might hurt; sometimes the truth does. But if people don't know, they stay the same way and wonder 'what the fuck is wrong with me?'
Okay I'm gonna stop feeling and become a heartless bitch with no emotion. Is that better? Jes** mother fu**** Ch****!!!!!!
And you men think women are irrational. Holy shit.
Sorry y'all, just venting.
Later - hopefully in a better mood.
About Me
- shorty
- A life fulfilled, great childhood, the opportunity to f*#* up and the pleasure of doing so. Making up, breaking up. Living and loving. That's all I've got.
3 comments:
Swear all you want, lady! Piss shit damn hell! He sounds crappy. Hmm. I don't like it when people ask me if I'm mad either, because I have a hard time saying if I am mad. Or if I'm in a pissy mood and snapping at people sometimes I don't even notice it. Maybe he's like that. But if he's acting pissed off, it's fair to let him know that you're feeling some hostility from him, right?
First off, most of what I say is a joke or just something to say so there isn't dead air. I'm not as serious about stuff as people seem to think I am.
Another thing, I don't even ask "are you mad?" that's what gets me. I make comments like..."I was beginning to wonder" (this one really pissed him off) or "you don't sound like you want to talk" or "you don't sound very happy". If I choose not to be the complete bitch, I'll have to start using my I statements.
Fuck the I statements, I call it like I see it. I am so mad and hurt at the same time.
I see your point about having a hard time saying your mad. Your a nice person. He is not, obviously he doesn't have a hard time saying it. Shit he's always fucking hanging up on someone, well me, not sure about anyone else.
I've tried to put all the blame on myself, ya know, tried to see if from his perspective. I'm not perfect. I just really don't think I was that difficult to get along with when it comes to him. I just really don't.
Anyway, I'm so over it. Oh well, another life lesson. I'm just going to start to be that bitch (not toward my real friends like yourself) that I was talking about.
Piss, shit, damn, hell!!!! over and over and over again.
yer much better off without him stressing you out. Now you can use that time and energy to find somebody better. And find one for me too.
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