Same old shit different day.
I wasn't invited to a "party" thingy they had at work. I'm offended cause I talk to those customers on a regular basis and I thought I should be invited. Either they forgot or they don't like the way I look so they don't want me to meet them face to face. The latter is what I'm thinking but ya never know. It could be an oversight I guess. I mean someone's gotta stay behind and do all the work...right? Even more upsetting is the fact of who I think the 'invitor' is. That would crush me if it was intentional from this person. I'm not even sure if he's the invitor.
I really am over it now but I was pretty upset over it last week. Now, actually, I'm glad I didn't get to go. What a stressful day and night - schmoozing with the customers - most of whom are older, not the most attractive men (I'm assuming of course). I don't drink anymore so it would have been pretty boring anyway.
My kids are doing well in school. Never underestimate your children. They may shock you. We had confrences and they are both improving greatly. I'm very proud of them and I tell them that every chance I get. I want them to know that that's the path to take. I want them to get excited about doing well instead of frustrated by not doing well.
Be proud of what you can do, of who you are - not ashamed of what you can't or who your not.
(I just made that up - swear) (Do you think it's already a "quote")?
Anyway,
lesson for today:
Go to bed, stay in bed.
And the "quote" above.
About Me
- shorty
- A life fulfilled, great childhood, the opportunity to f*#* up and the pleasure of doing so. Making up, breaking up. Living and loving. That's all I've got.
4 comments:
hell yeah, way to be a good mom, motivating with positive rather than negative.
as far as the party goes, do you think it might have been cuz the invitor knew you don't drink and thought it might be hard for you to be there around a bunch of people drinking? i know it's not their decision to make, either way, but i highly doubt it was cuz of how you look!
good gracious, you're beautiful! it was your quote afterall that sais to be proud of what you can DO and WHO YOU ARE! :) we like ya just the way you are! and i don't have ugly friends!
Awww shucks - thanks. I'm not sure the invitor knows I don't drink. He's probably heard through the grapevine though. Sometimes I feel like people find me repulsive - the way people look or stare sometimes gives be a complex. And how come no one has ever asked me out on a date? Not since I was in High School. Do I have bitch written all over me? Do I give off that I'm taken vibe? These are the things I ponder. I really don't think I'm repulsive - I could definitely be worse. I'm just not sure. Thanks for the positive comments. I do appreciate it.
lol. you are so not alone. i think many women feel this way. and very possibly many men (but i am not a man so i won't speculate). as a woman who feels the pressure to be like the women i see on t.v. and in magazines, i look in the mirror and go OHMYGOD! no wonder no one wants to date me. i swear, i think the same thing.
but fact of the matter is, if you think back thru old relationships with people who are just your friends, or ex's, or even your spouse, you remember more about what that person did, what kinda person they were, what they meant to you, not what they looked like.
so make a stand!
be beautiful anyway!
be beautiful inside, treat people well, smile often, be you. and if they look at you, do that up and down thing, smile big and just be you cuz fuck 'em, they are obviously not worth your time or energy and have mad issues themselves.
LOL. I think I give a strong "fuck off"vibe sometimes. The party probably sucked. Also, parties are dumb. Also, I love your inspirational quote about going to bed and that is just what I shall do.
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